By. Ran
I have had my fair share of heartbreaks. I have had enough heartbreaks that I am now fed up. That I have started building walls around me. That I have stopped believing in love.
I have walls higher than you can see. I have walls thicker than you can possibly imagine. Walls provide me with the comfort I have always wanted. They keep me safe. Safe from people who want to hurt me, who want to break my heart into a million little pieces.
So yes, I am guarded.
I am guarded because I am afraid of opening up and keeping the doors open for people to walk in.
I am guarded because I am afraid of meeting new people and laying my heart bare at their feet.
I am guarded because I know how it feels when you love someone deeply only to get nothing in return.
I am guarded because I have never met someone who is willing to protect me the way I protect myself.
I am guarded because I have trusted so many people who took me for granted.
I am guarded because I am fed up with giving second chances that I will regret doing so in the future.
I am guarded because I have been hurt in the worst possible ways imaginable.
I am guarded because I cannot live in the fear that someone will harm me again
I am guarded because I deserve a happy life.
I am guarded because I need time to heal myself.
I am guarded because I want to be as far ways from people who hurt me as possible.
I am guarded because I honestly have lost all hope about finding someone who will always have my back, someone who will always be there for me, someone who will never abandon me, no matter what may come.
I am guarded because I no longer trust anyone.
I am guarded because I cannot condemn myself for a life of misery and pain.
I am guarded because I have chosen this way to live.
So yes, I am guarded because of so many reasons. I do have many reasons why my walls are so high.
